tired.

shits hella complicated...
can a guy get some damn sleep?!
my work's been asking me to switch over to night crew instead of courtesy clerk.
its only a .50 increase. WTF?

Ramiele Malubay

FAIL

nooob.

just another day at schooool.

oh well each day gives me a chance to practice taking pictures!

here are some of my pictures..

oh and if you wanna hate... this is what mr cortez thinks...

mmm and i need another lens... gahhh...

coffeee.......

i just chugged a grande chai tea latte...
and im still tired...

COFFEEEEEEE

i just tried one of my coworker's hawaiian hazelnut coffee...and that shit's HELLA GOOD!!!
what the fuck have i been buying starbucks for?!!

Too much on my mind.

...so its been awhile. I'm listening to this new Rick Ross song, Maybach Music 2, and holy shit it has to be one of the best rap songs I've heard in awhile. It's been on repeat the past half hour.

Anyway, my life is fucking weird lately. I'm currently on spring break and I've realized that when I'm not in school for awhile I have problems knowing who I really am. Its almost as if I need people around me constantly to know who I am as a person. People are constantly influencing me.

The thought of "getting away" pops up into my head a lot. I never know where I would go though. Would being in a far enough place get my head straight? Last summer I visited my grandma in Michigan. The first night I was there I was extremely home sick. But why? Here in this shitty place I live in now, everyday is the same routine. I don't necessarily realize it though. In Michigan, my mind was so in peace it was amazing. That month was one of the greatest months of my life. Everyone I was around was 55+. No people my age at all, but for some reason these "old" people understood me. I never find myself able to talk to adults. Adults scare the shit out of me. I trust no adults at all. No idea why. I'm pretty sure its because they've havn't been there for me in so long. I just hate saying that because its such a naive teenager thing to say. When my mom passed away when I was 11, I had no clue how much my life would change. My dad, who used to be a really successful person, had turn into a fuck up. He would never admit it to me, but I know for sure that he was still in love with my mom when she had passed although they were legally divorced. To secretly know this is sad as fuck to me. I'm not always the nicest person to my dad, but I really should be. He's been through way too much shit to have his teenage son be a dick to him constantly.. I'll add more later.

new!!

i might be moving out into a new apartment soon!
gonna be renting an apartment with some coworkers @ slaveway, and i'd actually be the oldest.
i dunno if that's an advantage or not, but for now, ill look at it as one.
$1100 for a two room apartment with...
wait for it...
...
...
OUR OWN PARKING SPACES!!!
i know. im a loser.
and it has a pool too. not that anyone would wanna see my fat ass splashing around (>_<)
and its a gated apartment too.
but its in castro valley, where hella white people are...

random of the day

Shoe Summits = FAIL
1$ Taco from Taco Truck = PASS
The Hills Season 5 Premier = PASS
Spring Break = PASS
Demi Lovato = FAIL
Rain During Spring Break = FAIL

This is pretty random...